I Will NOT Google...

Tonight Aaron and I had to go to the walk-in clinic for a quick check up. He is due to fly up to his paternal grandparents with Eric for the holidays, and I don't want an ear infection cancelling the trip like last time. So I had the doctor look in his ears and one is a little iffy. I will take him back in two days. If it is still iffy, on to antibiotics he goes. I hate to put him on them, but if it means he is missing out on Christmas, he can go on them.

We initially went to the walk-in clinic for his ears, but I left worried about his eyes. As we were leaving he wanted to draw his name on the chalk bored. He spelled his name correctly; however, he wrote it right to left instead of left to right and some of his letters were backwards and off. Now, he is only 4 1/2, but I know this can be a sign of dyslexia. I am not freaking out, but I am a tad concerned.

I immediately called his coordinator and told her she wasn't sure what the next step in getting a diagnosis is. She will find out, and get back to me. In the meantime a trip to the family doctor and/or a referral to a paediatrician is in order.  In Canada, children do not see a paediatrician unless it is a special circumstance. I am not  upset but a little bit worried.... I have this nagging feeling, Why I don't know, but I do. I guess we will find out sooner or later. If dyslexia is the case, I know if it is caught soon enough, a lot can be done for Aaron, just as the autism was caught early and early intervention has been HUGE in the success he has had.

Stripe Inspired Post

This post is brought to you by stripes! Inspired by Whoorl. Aaron and I are on the ferry on the start of our road trip to Alberta! Were off the go see Grandpa Bob, a stop in a at my dad's. Tomorrow my sisters, and Wednesday Cowtown! Aaron will be with his paternal grandparents and Then momma's off to a country music festival! Lets pray there are no tornado warnings. Weather has been weird on the prairies this past week. I am terrified of tornadoes!

Aaron and I both happen both be in stripes today! Aaron courtesy of The Children's Place and me of  friend who lent me this shirt that I just love and no I will never ever find! So I will wear every time I get the chance.  Were killing time Aaron watching his DVD player, me tooling around the interweb.

 

A squirmey preschooler makes for a good post! You get the gist if his shirt.

Really Need to Post

The story of so many bloggers. You want to post but Just. Don't. Have Time.

Actually, I do but I have lacked to words to put together a decent post. I haven't known what to write or how to write it, which is funny considering I respond to emails all day long at work and can pull responses out of my ass.

There is so much going on, here, yet I am not to stressed. I miss writing. I do. I just am not sure what/how to write as Eric knows the URL to this space and if I were to write everything on my mind I feel that he would be reading part of me that i don't want him to.

So news. I have a place. My very own place! I got the keys for it this week and will be all moved in by Friday! Work is good. Aaron is good. And I am going back to school. I taking one course 2 evenings per week all as part of my plan to upgrade so eventually I can get into nursing. Or University. I am not sure what my future holds, but I crave an education. I have given some serious thought to getting involved with special needs or autistic children. I have taken the same course that new therapists that work with Aaron take. I took it so i would have the know how on how to deal with him and to parent him better.

I have given some thought to even applying to work with his company but with other children. I really don't know what career path I will take int he next few years. It could go in one of three directions, nursing, special needs, computer tech stuff.

At the moment I am working 4 days a week and going to school 2 evenings per week. I need the balance of work/Aaron time. I need to work to support us (Aaron and I) and he needs the routine of daycare and other kids a few days per week. But when I am not working, we are spending time together.

Eric and I are still not how we will arrange custody (50/50, 60/40, one week on, one week off, three days on, three days off...) We will figure it out as we go. I am only moving a few blocks or 2 min drive away from him. So we will be close enough that getting Aaron back and forth from each other will not be a hassle.

Funny I should bring up careers. I may have a job opportunity with the government for $50,000/year to start in Vancouver. if I am offered it, I will have to turn it down.  It is $11 more an hour than I currently make. My life is now on the Island, Aaron's life is and his dad is here. Now that my dad has retired, he wants to move here and my sister and her husband are moving to the Island within the next year. This means that she will be an hour and half drive away tops and my Aaron will have his cousin close by. This means I can take her on weekends and have a close relationship with her. I know my life is here now. Funny how irony works.

Ironically, I am not tired but will hit the hay as I have a long day tomorrow.

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This marks my 230th post on this blog tonight. I also had my 430th tweet. I sometimes wonder how many posts I lost on my old blog when I let the domain expire. Ce La Vie.

So a lot is going on and nothing at the same time. I have so many things floating around in my brain at the moment. I will think of awesome posts through out the day when I am at work and then lose them when I get home. There is the daycare issue, finding place, moving out, the challenges of parenting an autistic child. Sometimes it seems the older Aaron gets the more "autistic" he gets. But that is another post for another day.

I looked at two places tonight for Aaron and I. I want a 2 bedroom preferably with in-suite or shared laundry and a full bath tub. Not just a shower stall.

What I viewed tonight I thought were 2 bedrooms. Such a waste of my time. The first place I viewed was "1 bedroom and a den". To me a definition of a den is a small room suitable for an office or nook or toddler. It lacks a closet. The "den" I saw in the first place was a living room that could be used as a den. I figured it would have a bedroom, living room kitchen and smaller room suitable for Aaron. Yeah, no dice.

The second place was actually a 2 bedroom. With a kitchen an no living room. I don't think so.

I don't understand while rentals are so freaking expensive here. Some basement suites run $1200! WTF? Hell in Metro Vancouver I could at get a nice 2 bedroom basement suite for $875. I've seen 3 bedrooms on the top floor of a house for $900. Sometimes I really hate it here. It's amazing what difference 50 km and and island will make.

I didn't want this post to be whiny. Some how it has. I am all dried up for good material. I wanted to do a post about music. I listen to it all day long at work. I get right into it. Shit. You know what I just typed Reba has been texting me. (My dad had been  texting me and I had been relaying this info to Eric.) When I meant to type, Reba has been a favorite as of late. I go on to Groove Shark search an artist and select all their songs and rock out all day long.

A few others I have been listening to, Michael Jackson, Janet, Madonna, Will Smith (Summertime takes me back to my youth), Trace Adkins (as if that is any surprise) Conway Twitty, Loretta Lynn, Keith Anderson (I love XXL), Blake Shelton,  Easton Corbin, Aerosmith, The Clash, The Cure, Nirvana, Blind Melon. As you can see my music tastes vary greatly. I still love me my country music first and foremost. So much so I think my girl Kit Kat and I will be hitting out favourite Honky Tonk on NYE.

I should be going to bed. I didn't get to bed till midnight last night as I decided to go to the gym and go for a swim.G'night.
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Birthday Cake

It's Aaron's 3rd Birthday today. I don't know where the time has gone. Three years ago tonight we were in the hospital in the middle of a near sleepless night. Tonight, I will sleep. I am up later than usual, but needed to share pictures of his birthday cake I just made for his party tomorrow.

The detail is butter cream. The side and top are whipping cream.

I used whipping cream to ice it instead of butter cream frosting and OMG what a mistake. Butter cream is SO much easier to work with. I made him a train cake and tomorrow I will mount one of his Thomas Train's on it because actually decorating Thomas would take 3 hours. And I am not so keen on it as I was with his dinosaur cake.

B is for Basement!

The title of this post has no relevance to this post. Usually when Aaron sees the letter 'B' he will say "B, basement!" He learned this from riding elevators.

It's been too long since I wrote a post. We're sick. Well Aaron and I are. I have a cold and he has an ear infection. He is getting on plane in 2 days time. The timing couldn't be worse. The doctor at the walk-in clinic suggested that Aaron go on antibiotics as he will be flying and that we administer Advil or Tylenol for the pain. This is all fine and dandy but it's is Eric who will be taking him not me. When he is sick it's me he wants or my dad. I am not accompanying them as all is still not well with the MIL.

What I am doing is attempting a road trip with Tara. As soon as I drop Eric and Aaron off at the airport, I am heading to Vancouver. We heading to Oregon. We had thought of trying to make it to San Francisco, but that is just too crazy. We don't know where we are going for sure, but we will most likely be spending St. Patrick's Day in Portland. If we do make it there I plan on going to an Irish Pub downtown that serves great Irish Nachos.

So I am childless, job less and on Spring Break. I will letting the Good Times Roll. And Tara and TM are no longer an item, so all should be well!

I Don't Like It Lying Down

Some of you may wonder what I do all day while Aaron is at daycare? You know as I am unemployed and and have nothing else to do but sit on,my butt all day and read blogs and blog. Well one of the things I do to pass time is get inked! And instead of getting something small as per the norm for me. I went big. Bigger than any of my previous tattoos.

Final product.

Eric got me a gift certificate for a tattoo for Christmas. I got a tattoo with it a few weeks ago. I know I wanted a black and grey flower of some sort and was pretty sure I wanted a lily. The artist drew this on me by hand. I am very happy and very pleased with it! The only thing I am not pleased with is this one hurt like a bitch. And I had to get while laying down. I have never gotten a tattoo laying down before. I've always straddled a chair and I prefer that. Laying down, I couldn't read and had nothing to take my mind off of the pain. Last time I barely felt it. This time I felt like a baby. But the pain is beauty, and a beauty this one is!

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On the serious side of things. Since my unemployed ass can't find a job I started school this week. I am upgrading high school courses and want to apply for nursing. I've also thought of another job alternative the most wouldn't think of. I am giving very serious thought to joining either the Army/Navy/Air Force Reserves. I've found a unit and a trade I like and have to get my paper work in. I will not specify which branch of the Canadian Forces I will joining as would be too easy to pin point me. Going this route means I will not deploy, I will work part-time one evening and 2 weekends per month which will allow me to stay home with Aaron (not deploy) contribute to my family's income, get some experience to add to the resume and it's something I can do while going to university should I get accepted into my program.

Now I just need to get my ass in shape as Basic Training will kill me. (Held on weekends.)

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On the autism front, Aaron's assessments are next week. We dont' know what to think or make. Some days we think he is a normal little boy other days some of his behaviors perplex us. Regardless of the outcome it's better to know than not. Aaron continues to develop at daycare and is participating in circle time and games. 2 months ago he never would've done this. I am still glad we decided to put him in. It's one of the best parenting decisions I think we've made for him.

Good News I think.

I wanted to give a quick up on the job interview. It was a typical behavioural interview with two interviewers alternating asking questions and note taking. I've had done dozen of these interviews and I didn't sweat it.

I don't know where I stand, but I feel that it went well. I am not getting my hopes up, as I've done that with jobs I coveted only to be crushed.

We've decided on Aaron's daycare we both like it, and we couldn't pry him away from the toys. He cried when it was time to leave. A good sign. I'll touch more on this later. But I didn't get much sleep last night and Grey's Anatomy is on. I have my priorities.

A Quickie

I have a Halloween post in the works with lots of pictures for your viewing pleasure but blogger or my PC are being jerks and will not let me upload any pics after this first one. I don't have time to tinker with it and the pics are uploaded to the desk top not the lap top.

So the last 48 hours have been... ??? Maybe glimpse into my future. I've had two job opportunities come up. One I might have an in though a friend, the other I never expected to get a call for in my life lacking the education requirements, I applied for the hell of it and hoped my stellar cover letter delivered the goods. Which apparently it did!

Now I have to sell sell sell myself tomorrow. I didn't even have 24 hours notice for this job interview! I took the time, called a friend to see if she could watch Aaron and am going in on a hope and a prayer.

I've also have had two day cares spots become available. One we viewed today I did not care for. The other, it's good, I've viewed it when Aaron wad 13 months old but decided not to go back to work. I had him on this list since I was pregnant. SO I know it's good and holds itself to a high reputation and has excellent staff.

I was freaking out as to what to where, and the fact that my acrylic nails are half chewed off or broken look so bad. (I normally do not get acrylic but got them for my reunion.) So I got my outfit together complete with a quick trip to the mall for a new pair of black stiletto heals suitable for the office and black shrug to wear with my dress. Oh man I hope they like me and I give the right answers. Now to de nail myself.

Reflections

Some how I think they look better on me....


Aaron and my grandpa.

Reflections:

There were so many different things I wanted to write about. My shitty day, feeling sorry for myself, missing Eric, our 8 year anniversary of sorts. Labour day weekend has special meaning for us as it was the start of our relationship.

But I really want to write about my childhood reflections with my grandpa. I had the opportunity to spend some time with alone with Aaron and it brought me back to my childhood. He is going on 88, and is still of sound mind, living on his own, doing things for himself and is always on the go.

I have a special bond with him. My grandma and him helped my dad out a lot with me as a child. My dad worked shift work and didn’t have every weekend off. I only went to my mom’s ever second weekend, so on weekends when he worked I went to stay with them.

My grandpa is a patient man and had away with kids. He spend hours with me, and I think it shaped part of who I am. I look back on my childhood memories with him and have nothing but good memories. Some of my favorite memories are tinkering around in his basement at his work bench. We would soder iron stuff, (melt plastic) squeeze random things in the vice, play with magnets, charge car batteries. He always told me to be weary of the acid. It probably wasn’t the safest area for me to be, but I was supervised and nothing bad every happened to me or my cousins.

We would hop on a bus, and go all over Vancouver. We would take the Sea Bus to North Vancouver or take the bus to the airport to watch the planes land and take off. We went camping in his motor home and on nights when I would just stay there we always camped out in the motor home in the backyard. Winter or summer, it didn’t matter. He’d let me stay up late playing cards (rummy, crazy 8’s, poker) and had infinite amount of time.

That man can fix anything. I love him and am glad that I got some time with him and I want Aaron to get to know him before he passes. (Lets be real, he’s 88 it’s something I need to keep in the back of my mind.)When my grandma passed away when I was 13, it wasn’t long before he had a new girlfriend who move din shortly after they met. (6 months after they met?) I acted like a jealous daughter of a step-mom, and I lost a part of his affections. But he and my grandma were more roommates after my dad and aunt left the house. At this time I am happy he found a companion to spend the better part of 12-13 years with. (She had to be put into care due to Alzheimer’s) But I wasn’t back in the day. I am just so thankful that he is still around that I can make some new memories and that he contributed to happy child hood memories that might not have been there had he not took the time.

I’ve so many memories of this man, I can’t list them all. I have memories being a toddler with him and helping him shave with his electric razor and dumping his whiskers in the toilet and saying “Bye-bye whiskers see you in the riber.” (I said riber, not river) and I had visions of seeing them when we went down to the Fraser River.

I just wanted to say how much I love and cherish my grandpa. And I got to know him. I learned more of his an my grandma’s elopement, but that will be a post for another day. A good one. I am tired.

Camping, Round 1

Here are some pics of our trip last weekend. The pictures of Aaron and his cousin are when he waded out into the lake and got stuck, I had to coax her back to get him with chips. After she got him, they held hands along the shore it was so sweet. Pictures to follow of our luxury camping in my grandpa's RV.

10 Weeks

Aaron and I said good-bye to Eric this morning. We got up at 4:30am to drive him to work. He's gone for 10 weeks. In the early days of our relationship I'd cry when he left, it left me aching. This mornings good-bye wasn't a long lingering one like they used to be.

I think Aaron in oblivious to Eric being gone. As he said his last good bye I tried to get Aaron to say "Bye-bye Daddy." Only as we pulled away did he say "Bye Daddy." It nearly broke me. I have no way to ascertain his level of understanding in Eric's absence. I am not one to cry when he leaves for 2-3 weeks as I am used it, the days are short and I have a toddler to look after.

But this time it's different. It's bitter sweet as we have had our ups and downs over the last few months. Part of me wanted the break for space but the other part will miss him like crazy. I've been going back to the early days of our relationship. I not sure when things became so strained between us. Or for how long. Sometime after the birth of Aaron. I miss it when he was my everything and I'd do anything for him. I am not sure if we just became used to each other and started to take each other for granted. But things aren't the same. We didn't even have a lingering kiss good-bye. I tried but maybe he wasn't feeling it. We've both been dreading this trip and looking forward it at the same time.

One thing I keep telling myself is that no matter how bad my life is, someone has it worse. On out way home I saw not one, two, or three BUT FOUR fire trucks buzz on by us. I am not one to watch fires or stare at emergency scenes but I decided to follow them at a safe distance (I didn't have to follow very far) and when they arrived that the fire there was a laze with flames shooting at least 20 feet in the air. It looked like an inferno. At first I couldn't see if was an apartment building on fire or a car but soon it was apparent it was a dumpster. The fire fighters got it under control fast.

After they thought it was out, a small fire erupted. My guess is an arsonist. I can't see a fire raging that high in a dumpster without some sort of accelarant. Stupid fucker. There are businesses and a apartment buildings all around it. Someone could've been hurt. Thankfully nobody was. and the damage was left to the dumpster and shed that contained it.

At least Aaron got to see something he doesn't see every day. I took Aaron out of the car and pointed out all the different emergency vehicles. He was in his hey-day because of all the flashing lights. Aaron is sleeping again, I best be doing the same so I can keep up with him later today.

Not feeling it

I haven't been feeling the blog this week. In fact, I haven't been feeling a lot of blogs. Which is very strange for me being an avid blog reader since 2005... I had my dad staying with us for over a week and then the next day I had another friend stay with us so I just haven't been feeling it...

I'm also fighting a summer cold mixed in with allergies another reason I am not in the mood.

We had a great day as a family today. We took Aaron to a truck show at a miniature railway museum in Saanich and he had blast touching all the rims on the big rigs. He got to bounce in the bouncy castle, go for a tractor ride and a train ride. We came home and he crashed and we vegged around the house until we went downtown for the Symphony Splash fireworks in the Victoria Inner Harbour.

These were Aaron's first fireworks and he loved them. I was disappointed that they only last between 2-5 minutes (I shit you not.) Canada isn't known for its great fireworks IMO but my god, this is a long weekend, we have rich tourists on their yachts could you at least make them go for 10 minutes? I was spoiled growing up with the Symphony of Fire in Vancouver now known as the Celebration of Lights. Seriously the best fireworks I have ever seen. Eric disagrees (he hasn't seen them) and thinks the 4Th of July fireworks in Pearl Harbor are they best.

If you want to get a taste of Festival of Lights watch this video, it's only 2 min long.



I may be working soon and have been looking for quality child care for Aaron. I've been busy.

I found a new blogger and am going to take place in her 31 Days of Fun for August. Feel free to jump on the old band wagon if you wanna.

It's Complicated

My life isn’t a country song. Or that’s what I keep telling myself.

Up, down. Up, down. Up, down.

This is what my life has been like the past few weeks. My emotions are constantly in motion and it’s making me sick. I have emotional motion sickness if that is even possible. I want the constant motion to stop. I am scared if I do, it will feel better but hurt Aaron in the long run.

My relationship with Eric has gone awry and I’m not sure if there is a way to fix it. I’m not sure if it’s salvageable or if I even want to. We keep doing the same song and dance and if we don’t get out soon were going to become bitter and resentful towards each other and end up hating each other and not knowing why.

If I were to update my Facebook relationship status it would read “It’s complicated.” But my Facebook status will not read that as I am not one to air my dirty laundry on Facebook. If my relationship status does change, I’ll simply remove my relationship status from my info page.

I am not sure where we go from here. If I stay in Victoria or move back to Vancouver so I have the support of my family with Aaron. My dilemma is that I’d like to stay in Victoria so that Eric my see Aaron whenever he wants to. (I’d never deny him access to his son or make it difficult for him to see Aaron.) But I lack family here, which doesn’t help me when I need a break or need last minute baby sitting for a job interview or an appointment. Eric sails, so he isn’t here all the time either. So it’s not as though he can spell me out when needed. That is my dilemma. I don’t want Eric and Aaron’s relationship to be dictated by BC Ferries but so may be the case.

I am not sure what is what. But I’m tired of crying all the time.

Where I've been

Aaron and I went to Vancouver last Friday for 4 nights. It was hot! 30 degrees Celsius was average. I do not like the heat normally, but I was loving it. I actually went for the heat. We did a tour of the water parks. And I must say that is the best way to beat the heat is to follow your toddler through the water park.

I am very disappointed int he water parks in the Victoria area after being in the mainland. I 've yet to find one that even compares to Rocky Point Park in Port Moody. if I could rate it, I'd give is 4 stars. We also went to Hume Park in New Westminster, and Bear Creek Park in Surrey. Bear Creek isn't as good as I remember it as a child as it has been redone. I don't like water parks that do not have a pooling of water or little tiny rivers. Another thing I dislike about Victoria is that there are NO OUTDOOR POOLS or Kiddie pools. WTF? I know this town is slow and full of old people, but come on. The only one that does exist is at the university, which is not city run... I will have to check it out. But I am greatly disappointed, I was spoiled growing up in Greater Vancouver.

Also while there, I did the Grouse Grind. That is a trek OMG. It took me an hour and half to climb 2.9 km straight up a mountain. I took my sweet time and took many breaks. I feel better about it than when I did it when I was 17 as I huffed and puffed all the way up. My fitness level has improved greatly in 10 years. You're average bear can do it in under an hour, which I hope to do next time. I think if I had done it on a sound nights sleep and a high energy breakfast it would've gone better. I only had 2.5 hours of sleep that night and was up with Aaron at the crack of dawn.

This week we've been hanging around the house not doing much. And I am going to go do more of the same. Aaron in running a fever of 39 C. But has no other symptoms of being sick. We took him to the doctor's last night. I chalk it up to teething. I've been told by medical professionals that teething can't cause a fever, to which I saw BULLSHIT.

So Excited!

Chopping Board Post

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Even thought I barely got any sleep last night, I am functional today. Sadly, I am unable to nap as I had a grande americano when my friend and I took our kids for a walk.

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Aaron said his first word today! I was feeding him lunch and he said "cat!" Yesterday when I was getting dressed and my friend who was visiting was supervising lunch she said that he said "ca" when the cat jumped on the table. (She is such a nosey girl and a mooch to boot.) Today enters kitty and I said "cat" and he copied me in the softest little whisper! I was so thrilled but didn't over praise him as I didn't want scare him.

In other Aaron news, he is toddling every where in the last week and this morning he started climbing onto the foot stool that goes with our glider and rocking back and forth on it rocks in sequence with the rocking chair.

This is a fun time for us.

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I have a job interview tomorrow to be a supervisor at a small call center. I have no supervisory experience, but I landed an interview! All my years of working in call center has finally paid off. (The abuse you take as a rep can be horrendous. Picture yourself when you're being bitchiest to your local utility company rep and multiply that by 56 over 4 years and you may get a tiny glimpse into what a rep may feel, add personal issues to that and you get and even better idea. Imagine catching your boyfriend in bed with another girl, or that you found out he slept with your married friend and that they sent dirty emails behind your back the whole time your were dating and you get an idea that reps are people too.)

Part of me wants the job and part of me doesn't as I don't want to work full time yet. If I get it, then it's meant to be. I'd be in charge of 5-6 reps. I'm not nervous in the slightest as I have nothing to prove and I don't know the interviewers so it's a fresh start.

I have been feeling a little dejected as I haven't heard anything from any of the serving jobs I had a applied for, so I humbled myself and applied at Starbucks and a grocery store and still nothing. Yet when I apply for office work, I get called for an interview. I have applied for 3 office jobs in 6 months and I have been called or tested for all 3. Something tells me I am destined to be an office bitch for the time being, until I can get my Unit Clerk schooling under my belt, which will be a while yet until I can get my typing to 50 WPM.

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Has anyone ever practiced Bikrams Yoga? I've been doing ti for the last week and I am hoping to see some sort of benefit of it... I like it more than when I first tried it. I don't like the redundancy of the postures and the verbatim is always the same. ("Reach back, way back, far back, touch the wall...") Some instructors are a little too intense for my liking. Once I started staying in the back of the room and only taking their words as a grain of salt and stretching my posture until I felt a slight level of discomfort, did I start to enjoy it. I have been more intense over my fitness this last little bit and I hope that it pays off....

Ciao for now.

Aaron is doing much better. He got discharged at 11am and is almsot back to himself. He is eating, playing and drinking. He looks drunk becuase of all the fluids in him. He is too cute. Now that my boy is better I can divert my attention to some other blog worthy thoughts.

Perez Hilton - WTF? If you're assaulted why the hell would you tweet for your followers to call police? If your hurt you CALL 911! Not tweet your woes away. Especially when you're in a different country. Attention Grabber.

Jon And Kate - Who cares!

I should be sleeping...

Instead I am thinking about my baby. Aaron was admitted to the hospital tonight for dehydration. I was with him in emergency for 7 hours? He was getting over his flu and playing this morning while my dad watched him then he started screaming so loud and ear piercing it wasn't right so I took him in expecting to get some IV fluids and then be on our way. It took them forever from he time they gave us a area in emerg until they actually started to run tests on him. Turns out he was dehydrated as we knew and they waited 3-4 hours after we got there to give him his IV. WTF? It took 2-3 hours of fluids to get him perked up when I left (Eric is taking a shift so I could come home to sleep and shower.) He was playing in his crib. Ugh. I hate seeing my baby like that. He was in so much pain screaming and/or pissed off when he was being poked and prodded. seeing him get a catheter for a urine sampled wasn't fun, but he took it like a champ the blood work wasn't so fun. The x-ray he was right pissed off from just having his blood work I had to hold him to the bed so hard to get the shot of his abdomen. I though they'd need to get restraints for him. I'm exhausted but can't sleep. i can't decide if I should try again or just go to the hospital and sleep there (there is a fold out bed thing in his room) and send Eric home or try to sleep again? I had a shower in hopes to relax me but i just lie there thinking of my boy.

The Boy

At this very moment I should be on plane to Vegas. Instead I am siting at home with a kitchen and bathroom waiting to be cleaned. I made the decision to not go to Vegas 6 weeks ago based on a rough night my dad had with The Boy. I felt that he wasn't quite ready for me to eave him for 4 nights. I went back and forth over my decision and in the end I know I made the right one. My baby has been sick this week. He had a fever 39.5 C the other night and I still don't know why. Had I booked my ticket I wouldn't have been going. I wouldn't have felt right leaving him.

I still do not know why he he had such a high fever. I took him to the walk-in cinic last night and the doctor said that fevers that high generally are not from teething but usually an ear infection, which Aaron doesn't have. He though that maybe Aaron may have Baby Measles and if he does he should be getting a rash today which so far he hasn't. I am really curious as to what caused his fever. His immunizations are up to date. Maybe it will remain a mystery. He hardly ate or drank anything at all yesterday. He only nursed. He did have some toast and a bottle before bed which means he is back on track. He was up 2 times to feed last night. Which is good he went ot bed at 830pm and got up at 830am.

Eric and I are leaving him for a night with my dad but we will be in the city within 20 minutes of home if Aaron needs me.

In other Aaron news, the public health nurse stopped by yesterday and dropped off a questionnaire for us to fill out. Some of the stuff we need to try with him. Some of the stuff he does. Some he doesn't I think I was right to be a little concerned. In the communication section out of the 6 questions he only does one. There are three possible answers; yes, sometimes and not yet. He scored yes to one and not yet to 5. He does almost everything in the fine motor skills and problem solving sections. He will find something if you hide it under a blanket, and will drop toys into a box. He doesn't point at things, he doesn't have any other words for objects like "baba" for bottle or something for the cat. I am concerned about this. I have been trying to tech him "kitty" or some form of it for months. He also won't let us hold his hands and walk he buckles his legs yet he walks along furniture fine. I am going to try some of this stuff with him over the next few days as he gets better. He seems interested in trying to scribble on a piece of paper when I do it. But he can get distracted so easily.

He doesn't watch a lot of TV. I don't have it on often during the day and if I do its more background noise. I did throw it on Treehouse the other day and I think Sesame Street or something like that was on it had Elmo something or another and did that ever have his attention. Elmo was talking all about bananas and he liked that. Maybe I should let him watch that 10-15 min segment every few days. He also seems to like to TV listings channel. As it will often get put on and we end up leaving it on. I think for the time being, I am going to work on "na na" for banana as he eats them almost daily.

Well I must be off. I have cleaning that must be done.

Wordless Thursday